Do you hear my heartbeat?

It is so difficult to put the state of a human heart into words. Whether the heart is in a good or bad state, but let's be honest usually its a mix of both. To simply be able to express how we truly feel. Do you remember the first time you told your crush that you loved them? Remember the difficulties, shaking hands, stammering words trying to express what your heart was feeling? Do you remember the first time you tried to tell someone how much they have hurt you? Crushed your heart? Destroyed your soul? The choking tears and blinding rage as you try to voice how you feel?  The state of the heart is a difficult thing, one of the most fragile parts of our soul, our existence.

It is even more difficult to open up our hearts when we combined the state of our heart with illness, including mental health issues, or a broken spirit. It is even harder to open our hearts because most others wont open their heart back nor will the treat our hearts like the treasured, fragile, sacred thing it truly is.

The bible often says that where our treasure is our heart will also be. . .That is possibly why we hold it so dear, so close. Why we are so hesitant to open it up. There are probably parts of our hearts that we don't even fully know or see yet, but thankfully God knows. In Psalm 44:21b it says...
  since he knows the secrets of the heart?

He knows, and He is a safe one to entrust our hearts to. Even though He knows, He wants to know from us. He wants us to extend our trust and open up to Him. He knows how hard it is, He knows that tears may overwhelm us or giddy excitement and we might struggle to get the words out. But he isnt so much interested in what or how we say, no God is more moved by the simply fact that we trust Him enough to open up to Him. And as I said, thankfully He is trustworthy and our hearts are safe with Him. Scriptures speaks so often of our hearts being at peace in God etc, i do strongly feel it is a sense of being safe to be vulnerable before Him.

Unfortunately as the saying goes, No man is an island. We are designed to be in relationship not just with God but each other. So difficult to express the state of the heart, but should i dare to show you a glimpse, please hold it gently and treat it with the equal honour of opening up a bit of yours.